Category: Life

Weekly Round-up, February 22, 2025

John Winkelman

The ears of an orange cat visible over a rumpled pile of bed covers, also orange. In the background a window through which snow-covered houses are visible.

[Pepper, hiding.]

I am in the middle of another insane work week, so light updates here.

Reading

The Evergreen Review Reader, 1957 – 1966. Amazing stuff here.

Writing

Code. Lots of code.

Weekly Writing Prompt

Subject: Colonization, Fae
Setting: Mountains
Genre: Fantasy

Listening

Hannah Waddingham and Brendan Hunt singing the B-52’s “Love Shack” This video will live in my head, rent-free, FOREVER!

Interesting Links

Weekly Round-up, February 15, 2025

John Winkelman

A trail of cat footprints in a light covering of snow.

[A trail of cat footprints in a light covering of snow.]

This past week was hectic, but not overwhelming. We are already making plans for ConFusion 2026, and I am excited to be part of that process. ConFusion 2025 was a tremendous experience and I am grateful that we are able to keep that momentum up as we plan for next year.

Reading

I finally finished Boris Pasternak’s Doctor Zhivago. In any other year I would have completed it sometime around the holidays, but surviving in a cyberpunk dystopia takes a lot of mental energy, and is quite psychologically draining. And classic Russian literature requires a lot of focus and attention to detail.

Immediately upon closing the Pasternak, I opened The Evergreen Review Reader, 1957-1966. I believe I picked this book up as a remainder when I worked at Schuler Books & Music back in the mid-1990s. So this book has been in my possession for between 25 and 30 years. And now I am finally reading it. The first two short stories therein are by Samuel Beckett and Jack Kerouac.

Writing

While at Monumental ConFusion a couple of weeks ago, my partner bought me an unlined journal with paper thick enough to allow me to use a fountain pen without bleed-through or blotching. I have written a couple of poems in it, one a sort of “welcome to the journal” piece, and the other a response to finishing Doctor Zhivago here in the mid-21st century. Feels good to have my head in that space again.

Weekly Writing Prompt

Subject: Environment, Precursors
Setting: Frontier
Genre: Technothriller

Listening

“Careless Whisper” by Wham!

While looking for a song to include in this post, I found a list of the top 40 songs of this date 40 years ago. “Careless Whisper” was at the top of an ABSOLUTELY AMAZING collection of music. 1985 was a hell of a year to be a teenager listening to the radio.

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Weekly Round-up, February 8, 2025

John Winkelman

For the first time in many months, I had a week which wasn’t particularly busy. Or rather, not busy by my usual standards. And I celebrated by being completely brain-dead for the entire week. I managed to accomplish what work was sent my way, and I attended all of the martial arts classes as usual, but other than when working out, I spent the entire week on autopilot.

Reading

I made minimal progress in Doctor Zhivago, due to my brain simply not working. And also by sleeping through what is usually my reading time in the mornings. I really shouldn’t let myself get so exhausted.

Writing

I barely even wrote in my journal this week, though I plan to ramp that up significantly, if for no other reason than that between the tidal wave of LLM-generated content, and the capture of all of the online platforms by billionaire fascists of various flavors, handwritten creative work is the only writing which is guaranteed to be “real.”

Weekly Writing Prompt

Subject: Super Powers, Precursors
Setting: Labyrinth
Genre: War

Listening

“I Hate You” by Kirk Thatcher and his band The Edge of Etiquette. Recorded for That Scene in Star Trek IV.

Weekly Round-up, February 1, 2025

John Winkelman

I am back home and in blissed-put recovery mode after four days of Monumental ConFusion. I will post a write-up in the near future.

Reading

I finished Speculative Whiteness, and am in the final stretch of Doctor Zhivago. Zhivago has been a very long project, due in large part to chaos in my day job and also chaos in the world at large. Concentration and focus have been in very short supply this year.

Writing

My brain is recovering from the past three months of *gestures at everything*, so not much writing this week.

Weekly Writing Prompt

Subject: Undead, Genius Loci
Setting: Library
Genre: Solarpunk

Listening

Marianne Faithfull and The Chieftains, “Love is Teasin'”, from the magnificent album The Long Black Veil.

Faithfull died this past Thursday, after a long, difficult, and beautiful life.

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Weekly Round-up, January 25, 2025

John Winkelman

The view from the hotel window at ConFusion 2025. A parking lot, a frozen pond, and several roads are visible, as well as various evergreen and deciduous trees.

[The view from the hotel window at ConFusion 2025.]

This will be a brief update, as I am at Monumental ConFusion for the weekend.

Reading

With the crazy project finally mostly wrapped up, I finally have time and – more importantly – mental energy to dive back into reading. I am bouncing back and forth between Pasternak’s Doctor Zhivago, where I am well past the halfway point, and Jordan S. Carroll’s Speculative Whiteness, which is a short but infuriating read, though now that I am well past the halfway point it is becoming amusing. The alt-right, in all their various facets, are a bunch of pathetic losers.

Writing

Not much writing happening right now, thanks to the afore-mentioned Crazy Project.

Weekly Writing Prompt

Subject: Empire, Genius Loci
Setting: Wilderness
Genre: Dystopian

Listening

“Father & Son” by Yusuf Islam/Cat Stevens. My partner and I have been watching Ted Lasso, with is remarkable and joyous, and the final scene of the final episode featured this song.

Interesting Links

Weekly Round-up, January 18, 2025

John Winkelman

A sprig of purple kale peeking out of a pile of snow.

[A sprig of decorative purple kale peeking out of a pile of snow just outside of Martha’s Vineyard in Grand Rapids, Michigan.]

Another week in the hopper, and I am exhausted. This week I worked 51 hours and managed to avoid missing the evening classes by logging in between 6 and 7:00 in the morning. But we have two more days to go, though I am sure the project leads would love for me to work through this three-day weekend, that just ain’t gonna happen.

The next blog post – indeed, the next couple of hundred blog posts – will be sent from the newly-formed Fascist States of America, headed by several billionaires stuffed in a sagging, ugly, shit-stained Donald Trump costume.

This state of affairs became inevitable when the Supreme Court passed Citizens United, which codified into law the idea that money is exactly the same as speech, and that the richer a person (or corporation) was, the more deserving of free speech they were. It is no coincidence that these billionaire broligarchs consider themselves “free speech absolutists”, but only when it comes to the dissemination of white supremacist and other forms of hate speech. Note how quickly they close down any criticisms of themselves on their own platforms.

So in that sense, Donald J. Trump, Elon Musk, Mark Zuckerberg, Jeff Bezos, and the other wealthy media outlet owners are the most cowardly men on the planet. They have gone to astonishing lengths to build up enough wealth to not only shield themselves from the consequences of any of their actions, but also to shut down most avenues of criticism of them and the members of their cohort. They are the living embodiment of Wilhoit’s Law: “Conservatism consists of exactly one proposition …There must be in-groups whom the law protects but does not bind, alongside out-groups whom the law binds but does not protect.”

Reading

I have passed the halfway point of Doctor Zhivago, but it is still slow going. Maybe the long weekend will afford me time to get in some pages.

Writing

I am giving up on writing anything substantial until February. This month has been a total wash.

Weekly Writing Prompt

Subject: Artificial Intelligence, Cryptids
Setting: Ruins
Genre: War

Listening

Aphex Twin, “On”

Interesting Links

  • With the annual State of the World address wrapped up, a new conversation is ongoing at The Well: “State of the News 2025“
  • Have a couple of decades to kill? browse the Magazine Rack at the Internet Archive.

Weekly Round-up, January 11, 2025

John Winkelman

The Grand River, as seen at sunset from the Bridge Street bridge.

[The Grand River, as seen at sunset from the Bridge Street bridge.]

Another week gone, consumed by the crazy work project. The end is nigh, but it is a combination of an abrupt cliff and a brick wall toward which we are racing headlong. So kind of like life in general.

I am winding down my interactions with Facebook, as Zuck has joined Musk in licking MAGA boots, so Facebook will not stop even the pretense that it isn’t a Nazi bar. Thus it joins Twitter/X, Gab, Rumble, and Truth Social as a safe space for fascists.

Most of my social media presence will now be on BlueSky (until it, too, follows Xitter into the shitter) and Mastodon, which has so far mostly avoided the problem of being owned by billionaire tech bros. We will see how that plays out in the next four years.

Reading

I have finally reached the halfway point of Doctor Zhivago, a month later than I originally expected. It is very, very good.

Writing

While sitting at a cafe yesterday morning before work I knocked out a rough draft of a poem about the Los Angeles wildfires. I might leave it at that, as the subject is so fucking depressing.

Weekly Writing Prompt

Subject: Empire, Aliens
Setting: Bar
Genre: Technothriller

Listening

Elvis Presley’s “Suspicious Minds” has been bouncing around my head lately, for no particular reason, other than that, fifty-five years later, it is still a hell of a song.

Interesting Links

Weekly Round-up, January 4, 2025

John Winkelman

A section of one of the shelves of books in the poetry section at Argos Books and Comics.

[A section of one of the shelves of books in the poetry section at Argos Book Shop. Taken because of the presence of issue 2.3 of The 3288 Review, of which I was the Managing Editor.]

This past week was blissfully quiet. I didn’t do much, and I would like to continue to not do much for the rest of my life, but alas – work started on Thursday, and though few members of our team were around, I had plenty on my plate to keep me busy, and fortunately few co-workers to disrupt my flow.

ConFusion 2025 begins in three weeks, and the tasks and obligations are quickly stacking up. I am the Head of Operations this year, which mostly means answering a lot of questions and wrangling volunteers. And I am very much looking forward to the event which is one of the two major highlights of my year.

Reading

I am close to halfway through Doctor Zhivago, and it just keeps getting better. This is a much easier read than any of the Dostoevsky I read over the past several years. Not that Pasternak is a better writer, just more readable.

One of my major reading goals for the year is to focus on nonfiction, and to that end I started Speculative Whiteness: Science Fiction and the Alt-Right by Jordan S. Carroll. It is quite good so far, and has reignited in me an interest in politics and political theory, which I am pursuing in my offline journal. You may ask, “didn’t the recent several elections keep your attention?” and the answer is yes, but also the last three elections, thanks to Trump and his strangle-hold on American conservatism, have been utter shitshows. This will likely not stop until he is biodegrading and all of his works pulled down and salt strewn where they once stood.

Writing

I have managed some short creative works – a sentence here, a paragraph there, and also the rough draft of a poem which came to me while I was reading Doctor Zhivago in a laundromat last week. So the year has promise, in this one small facet.

Weekly Writing Prompt

Subject: Cryptids, Mutants
Setting: Ruins
Genre: Magic Realism

Listening

The Cars, “Moving in Stereo“. This song is of course most famous for That Scene from Fast Times at Ridgemont High, but it was also one of the first songs I listened to on Pandora, back in the early 2000s, when Pandora was a web-based Flash application, and it actually downloaded the songs it played to a directory on the user’s hard drive. In case you are wondering, Pandora no longer downloads the songs it plays.

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2024 In Review

John Winkelman

You know, as far as years go, 2024 was a great big nothing-burger. It was just kind of…there. I am sure that with the incoming fascist regime taking power in late January, we will look back on 2024 as the Last Good Year for a very long time.

Things were…decent. 2024 started rough with a surprise dental emergency, but after that the year was quiet. A sort of “keep your head down and focus on what is in front of you” year. I read some good books and some mediocre books. I wrote in my journal a lot, but managed almost no creative writing at all, beyond rough drafts of a few poems.

I worked out a lot, cooked a lot, ate a lot, played with the cats, spent a lot of quality time with my partner, and visited some folks.

2024 was the first year in a long time when there were no deaths among my friends and family, and for that I am grateful.

Now that 2025 is upon us, it is time to ground myself and reach out to the friends and family who will be in precarious and vulnerable situations, no matter who they voted for. The country going full-on Christofascist became inevitable the day Reagan was elected, and will not change until the power of both capitalism and Christianity, and particularly the obscene melding of the two, are utterly broken. So, no time soon, unless we have some Jackpot-style global catastrophes which sweep away the entirety of all dominant global power structures. And if that happens, we will have much bigger problems than the glorification of fascism by literally all conservatives in this country.

Happy New Year.

Weekly Round-up, December 28, 2024

John Winkelman

Poe and Pepper, asleep on the bed.

[Poe and Pepper, asleep on the bed.]

Happy holidays, everyone! My partner and I are practicing a delicate mix of laying low and avoiding people, and travelling to visit friends and family.

Reading

I have made some small progress in Doctor Zhivago, though I have a long way to go.

Writing

Not much. No mental capacity.

Weekly Writing Prompt

Subject: Dreams, Fae
Setting: Ship
Genre: Procedural

Listening

Autechre’s “Gantz Graf”. I listened to this kind of music A LOT early in my career as a developer, when cyberspace was a thing and the internet was new and cool and exciting. Now that we are living in a hellish cyberpunk dystopia built on that earlier iteration of the Online, returning to old tunes seems appropriate.