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IWSG, September 2023: Happy Anniversary, IWSG!

2023-09-062023-09-06 John Winkelman

Sunflower growing against a retaining wall.

And with that, summer is over, and summer is almost over, if you know what I mean. I graduated from GVSU over 30 years ago, and still feel energized by the start of the new school year.

The Insecure Writer’s Support Group question for September 2023 is: The IWSG celebrates 12 years today! When did you discover the IWSG, how do you connect, and how has it helped you?

I discovered the IWSG when I started following the blog of Jean Davis, who I met through the Ottawa County/Grand Rapids region of National Novel Writing Month. I noticed that every once in a while a blog post with an oddly familiar title would pop up, and after some investigation discovered the IWSG blog hop.

I joined the blog hop in March of 2021, a year into the COVID-19 pandemic. The connection with other writers was a welcome relief after a year of isolation.

I participate in the blog hop every month, sometimes a lot, sometimes a little, but I try to stay engaged every month. Jean Davis is the only IWSG participant who I know personally.

Due to when I joined IWSG, I would say that the biggest benefit is the reminder that the world is full of creative people and everyone has successes and failures, triumphs and struggles, and that communities are things actively created, not passively experienced.

 

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IWSG, August, 2023: Woulda, Coulda, Shoulda

2023-08-022023-08-02 John Winkelman

Poe, looking out over her domain.

(Poe, surveying her domain, which is everything.)

Oh, what a month was July. There have been hotter summers here in Grand Rapids, and there have been more humid summers, but I don’t remember a summer when it was so unpleasant to be outdoors for so much of the time.

I imagine the perpetual smoke from the Canadian wildfires might have something to do with it. But there are up-sides. As Ray Barboni said in Get Shorty, “They the f*cking smog is the f*cking reason you have such beautiful f*cking sunsets.”

Last weekend, for the first time since well before the COVID lockdowns, I attended a writer’s group. It was…wonderful! And now I have a plan for what I am going to work on for the rest of the year.

The Insecure Writer’s Support Group question for August 2023 is: Have you ever written something that afterwards you felt conflicted about? If so, did you let it stay how it was, take it out, or rewrite it?

Occasionally. Less so now than in the earlier days of my writing, simply because I have had more practice and am more likely to spot problematic passages and ideas earlier in the process. But sometimes something slips past and makes it into a later draft.

Then there are projects like my first NaNoWriMo story, back in 2013. It was a technothriller set about fifty years from now in Gabon. I chose Gabon purely for geologic and climate reason, with no thought given to the history and culture of Gabon and Libreville, Gabon’s capital city. There isn’t much information on the culture of Gabon right now, and was much less 12 years ago. So while I still think the bones of the story are good, if I want to complete it for publishing I will need to seriously rework every character, as well as my assumptions about what Gabonaise culture will look like in 2075.

A more mundane example: For my 2018 NaNoWriMo story (NaNoWriMo again!) I wrote a book which was basically a transcript of multiple interactions with a terrible neighbor, rearranged and with a wish-fulfilling ending tacked on. I used everyone’s real names, so if I do try for publication, I will need to make some changes. I do this not to protect the innocent, or preserve privacy, but because, in the extremely unlikely event that the neighbor in question reads the book, I don’t want to get sued. So perhaps this isn’t something I feel conflicted about so much as a timely application of enlightened self-interest.

 

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IWSG, July 2023: Where Do They Come From? Where Do They Go?

2023-07-052023-07-03 John Winkelman

Poe gazing out at the neighborhood

Well it’s been a crazy couple of months here at the Library of Winkelman Abbey. A major landscaping project took up most of May and June, with the final brick laid on June 28. I am on an extremely busy project at work which will keep me occupied through July 2024, and Zyra and I took a whirlwind trip around Lake Michigan, stopping in Chicago, Madison, Marquette, and Sault Ste. Marie. We saw several people who we have missed dearly, and while the break in the routine was much-needed, it was a lot of driving. Well over 1,200 miles in five days.

All of which is to say, my writing time since the Equinox has been basically non-existent.

But I have this week off from work, and am spending as much time as I can sitting on the porch with books and cats and various drinks and snacks. Therefore this is a week for recovery.

Since November 2022 (NaNoWriMo) I have written practically nothing, other than infrequent blog posts and almost-daily journaling. In past years I would have a pile of poetry, short stories, essays, etc. scattered around my house, laptop and brain. This year, that was not the case.

For a time I thought it might be an after-effect of contracting COVID back in January, but my newest theory is this:

For my entire adult life writing has been a social activity. I started when I worked at Schuler Books, sharing ideas with my cow-orkers and participating in weekly group discussions and writing groups. We were a mutually reinforcing, ever-evolving group of creative and talented weirdos, and we always had something new in the works.

Somewhere in the early 2000s, well after leaving the bookstore, the writing began to taper off, though I kept up with the journaling, and when blogging became A Thing I took to it like crazy (note that the archives on this site go back to 1999).

In November 2013, at the tail end of a profoundly hellish couple of years, I participated in my first NaNoWriMo, and joined a local writing group. This turned into five years of running Caffeinated Press, and though I was busier than ever before in my life, I still found plenty of time and energy to write creatively.

This was because, again, I was surrounded with creative people engaged in creative work, feeding off of that energy and contributing to it as part of multiple writing groups and projects.

For obvious reasons, social interaction here is 2023 is a much different thing than it was in 2018. And I am in a long-term relationship, and I am in my mid-fifties, and the world is a different place than it was five years ago. And I am a much different person than I was five years ago.

One of the biggest personal changes is that I have almost no solitude any more. My time to myself is measured in minutes, where it used to be measured in days. Therefore the thought of adding more interactions with people fills me with anxiety. Yet my writing habits of the past thirty years are tightly tied to being part of a writing community. Groups like IWSG are helpful but limited; for me, there are too many spatial, temporal, and digital interfaces between the participants to cultivate a sense of community like back in The Old Days.

But time only moves in one direction (for most of us, anyway), and having had the above realization, and having thought it through, now I can begin to do something about it. Time to get back to work.

The Insecure Writer’s Support Group question for July 2023 is: 99% of my story ideas come from dreams. Where do yours predominantly come from?

My story ideas can come from almost anywhere. Most common is from being out in the world, talking to people or walking the streets of Grand Rapids, or sitting in a cafe or relaxing at the beach. Which is to say that most of my ideas come from those moments when I don’t have much else going on, and have the time and brain-space to follow a thought far enough to turn it into the seed of a story or poem.

That doesn’t mean that I have time to write the idea down; simply that the idea exists. If I remember it long enough to write it down, it is probably something worth exploring.

 

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IWSG, June 2023: If Not This, Then What?

2023-06-072023-06-10 John Winkelman

[2023.06.10 NOTE: This post was written several days later than was originally scheduled.]

Hi Everyone! I am just returned from a whirlwind trip around Lake Michigan where my partner and I stopped to visit friends and family in Madison WI, Marquette MI, and Sault Ste. Marie MI. Thus the lateness and brevity of this post.

The Insecure Writer’s Support Group question for June 2023 is: If you ever did stop writing, what would you replace it with?

Good question! I would probably increase my practice time at Master Lee’s school. Then again that is something I should do anyway. Honestly, I can’t fathom what it would be like to stop writing, so a safe answer is that if something were to stop me from writing, it would probably be the kind of circumstance or event which would prevent me from doing almost everything else too.

 

 

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IWSG, May 2023: You’re My Inspiration

2023-05-032023-05-03 John Winkelman

Poe with a blep

Yeah, the above photo sums up my state of mind for the past month.

Not long after posting the April IWSG response, the burnout came crashing down and my mental capacity was reduced to little more than spasmodically responding to immediate stimuli. Fortunately, in my day job I am a programmer. Programming, when you boil it down to the essentials, is really about creating specific responses to specific stimuli. We call it “input”, but why split hairs?

Therefore my entire creative output for National Poetry Month came to maybe five poems, out of which at most one shows any promise. But I did become even more sleep deprived, which is a victory of sorts.

The May 2023 Insecure Writer’s Support Group question is: When you are working on a story, what inspires you?

This is a surprisingly difficult question to answer, as inspiration could change from story to story, or even from scene to scene within a story. So it might be more useful for me to answer that at a deeper level – what inspires me to be creative? And I think the answer to that is, the drive to create something which is ideally beautiful, hopefully internally consistent, and which effectively communicates the original multidimensional idea behind the story.

As I move well into middle age, and look back over the scores of stories and hundreds of poems in my portfolio, I think everything I have written is a facet of the same stone, and I am polishing that facet and presenting it to my readers and saying “Do you see?” And whether the answer is “yes” or “no,” I use that response as inspiration to hone my craft and try to communicate that idea through another facet, be it a novel, a short story, a poem, fantasy, science fiction, literary fiction, a game, or a scribbled note in the margins of an old Dungeons and Dragons character sheet.

At the beginning each of my creative works is inspired by asking “what if?”

As I near the end of the process, the inspiration may mutate into desperation because I just want to be able to write THE END without, you know, skipping to THE END.

As a final note, I want to thank the IWSG community for accepting me into their ranks. I have been participating for just over two years, and writing these posts, and reading the other answers to the monthly questions, help keep me focused and, frankly, inspired.

 

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IWSG, April 2023: The First One

2023-04-052023-04-05 John Winkelman

Maple buds against a clear blue morning sky.

Oh, what a month was March. The hours seemed to fly by, but the days dragged. The weather is much improved, though the warmest day of the year so far was back in February.

I have a new project at work which, while not demanding any more time than any other project, is taking vastly more mental energy than I am used to, so writing over the past month has been sparse.

April is National Poetry Month! As with the past several Aprils, I attempt to write a poem a day for the month, while primarily reading poetry, just to keep my head in that space. So far I have written four poems, which brings my total for the year to, uh, four.

The Insecure Writer’s Support Group question for April 2023 is:

Do you remember writing your first book? What were your thoughts about a career path on writing? Where are you now and how is it working out for you? If you’re at the start of the journey, what are your goals?

I have written six books over the past decade, thanks to NaNoWriMo. Of those six, two (one literary fiction, one magic realism/weird fiction) are completed first drafts. The rest are in various stages of “in progress” or “abandoned.”

It goes without saying, therefore, that I have not yet published any books of my own writing.

I have never expected to make a career out of writing books, or indeed any other kind of writing. The few pieces I have had published (short stories, poems) were not published at paying markets. This is fine. I used to run a small publisher, and I know how these things go.

But I suppose a “career” is not necessarily the same thing as whatever we do for our main, or even secondary (tertiary, etc.) source of income. This eases the pressure on writing by loosening time constraints and making those self-imposed deadlines more like guidelines. This works both for and against us, as I am sure all of you have discovered at one time or another.

As for writing goals, it is difficult right now to make long-term writing plans. I have a great many stories and poems bouncing around in my head, but finding the quiet time to put those words to paper is not as easy as it was five years ago. I am a little older every year, and when given the option between half an hour of writing and half an hour of sleep, sleep will win every time.

Then again, April is finally here and today the outside temperature is expected to be above 70°. That would make today the warmest day of the year so far. I don’t know about you-all but warmer weather just makes everything easier.

Even writing.

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AI and Art: What Goes In Is What Comes Out, At Most

2023-03-032023-03-03 John Winkelman

Back in January, I participated on two AI Art-themed panels panels at ConFusion 2023. I discussed these panel briefly in my ConFusion 2023 follow-up post, but I wanted to add some thoughts here, specifically around ChatGPT and the use of computer generated content in the context of writing.

When it comes to ChatGPT creating content, whether that content be fiction or nonfiction, it does what all of these tools do: remixes previously existing content. I make no claims about whether the thing created by an algorithm is “art” or “creative” or even “new,” but what the new content does not do is transcend its input.

ChatGPT and similar tools are trained by scanning and (hopefully) contextualizing all of the text on the internet. While ChatGPT has (or had) safeguards in place to counter the large amount of hate speech endemic to the modern internet, it still has literally centuries or even millennia of content in its input stream. A great deal of that content is regressive or even revanchist by today’s sensibilities.

And since these machine learning tools can not imagine the new, they will continue to remix the old. Even as new, human-created works become available, this new data is miniscule compared to the vast troves of work on which these tools have already been trained. And a sizeable portion of the new inputs from these tools will be previous output from the same tools, resulting in a sort of solipsism which quickly becomes untethered from any human creativity or input, thus making a large portion of the output of those tools useless except as a point of curiosity.

Additionally, here are a few points of reference:

  1. That which is called “AI” in these contexts is not artificial intelligence as it is generally understood, but is variously either neural networks, the output of machine learning tools, pattern-matching algorithms, or (usually) some combination of the three, and in all cases the output is the result of running these tools against input which was generated, overwhelmingly but not exclusively, by humans.
  2. The landscape of AI-generated art, which includes text, music, and visual arts, is rapidly evolving.
  3. Opinions on the use of AI in the arts, as well as the effects of AI generators upon the profession and livelihood of artists, are wide and varied, and continue to evolve and gain nuance.

Some more links on this general topic:

  • Jason Sanford’s Genre Grapevine post on this subject on his Patreon, written around the time of the ConFusion panels
  • “AI = BS” at Naked Capitalism
  • The 2023 State of the World conversation at The Well
  • ChatGPT Is a Blurry JPEG of the Web – Ted Chiang
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IWSG, January 2023: The Word of the Year

2023-01-042023-01-04 John Winkelman

Poe (left) and Pepper eyeballing each other

The week before Christmas I was struck down by the flu. I worked from home for that week, and just when I started to feel better the Great Christmas Blizzard of 2022 covered West Michigan with a ridiculous amount of snow. Throughout these two weeks of isolation, Poe and Pepper (pictured above) were a wonderful source of amusement and affection for Zyra and I.

The Insecure Writer’s Support Group question for January 2023 is:

Do you have a word of the year? Is there one word that sums up what you need to work on or change in the coming year?

For this year, I think my word will be Attentiveness. That point where attention meets engagement. I had little enough of either over the past (checks notes) five years, since I went on hiatus from Caffeinated Press at the beginning of 2018. The last three years have been a fugue of reacting to or recovering from outside world events. Now that we are through the holidays and already the daylight hours are growing noticeably longer, I feel a renewed energy.

Attentiveness, to me, means not just noticing the parts of my life which need attention, but then doing something about it. Whether it be my relationship with my partner, my health, the martial arts class, my family, my writing, our house, or anything else in my life, I think I am ready to re-enter the world and take care of the things which need taking care of.

 

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NaNoWriMo 2022 Wrap-up

2022-12-022022-12-02 John Winkelman

Poe in Repose

Well, NaNoWriMo 2022 is over, and I can chalk up another win for myself. I hit 50,000 words in my WIP Cacophonous on November 23, and managed to get in a couple thousand more before the end of the month. I had hoped to hit 60k but family and holiday stuff, as well as a strong attack of burnout from the year, sapped all of my creative energy. But still – 50,000 words in a little over three weeks. I’ll accept that.

This year I employed the same strategy as last year – one document for every day of the month, word count in the title, and let the chapter breaks fall where they may. As with last year, this had two benefits. First, it removed the sense that the next chapter couldn’t start until the previous one was finished. I didn’t have to finish scene X by the end of the day. I could pick it up the next morning. This is really more of a psychological than a practical trick. but it does keep the focus where it should be for NaNoWriMo – productivity and word count. The editing happens later. This is Draft 0. After it is all cobbled together, it is draft 1. Then the editing can begin. And second, I could start each day fresh, unencumbered by what I had worked on in the previous sessions.

The big change this year, from the past three, was the community involvement. Of course 2020 and 2021 had no in-person events, and 2019 I think I skipped out on everything so I could be with my partner as she had recently moved in and things around the house were still a little chaotic.

I didn’t realize how much I had missed the community aspect of NaNoWriMo until I walked in the room for the kickoff party back at the end of October and saw all of those familiar faces, some of whom I had not seen in five years. Then there was a book launch party for the first publications by Lakeshore Literary, the new publishing endeavor which grew out of the ashes of Caffeinated Press. And then two weeks ago we had DoKN, or the Day of Knockout Noveling, where I wrote about 5,000 words in one afternoon, ate a lot of really good food, and encountered many more of the people who I had not seen in years.

So, like so much else in 2022, my sense is that the world is making up for the two years when we couldn’t do anything, by having everything happen in a very short amount of time.

As of this writing I am about 60% of the way through Cacophonous. More if I take the short story I wrote in October 2021 and turn it into the last couple of chapters. I will certainly use a lot of it, but the book is significantly different from the short story so I will only bring over the bones of the first work.

Will I participate in NaNoWriMo again? Absolutely! There are no bad sides to such an event.

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Whole Lotta Writing Going On

2022-11-202022-11-20 John Winkelman

Pre-Thanksgiving snowstorm

Brief update this week, on account of I have a very full plate.

No new book arrived this week, so here is a photo of the bird feeder outside my dining room window, before half again that much snow was added to the pile. It’s been a wacky couple of days here, weather-wise.

In reading news, I just finished Jim C. Hines’ Terminal Peace, and it is really good! A fine conclusion to a fun trilogy.

In writing news, I am fast approaching 50,000 words in my NaNoWriMo 2022 story Cacophonous. I expect to “win” before Thanksgiving, and possibly finish the draft by the beginning of December. And writing at this pace is turning my brain to mush.

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